2009

A NEW YEAR!!!!!!! It's freaking 2009 and all I can think of is the PEAK!!!! argh....for the next 6 months I'll be working my ass off and not getting OT leave. Well I've been complaining soooooo much throughout 2008 and it's really time to stop.

Kenny have been listening to my rant to a pt that he really can't take it. Well I think it has already reached a pt where I myself can't take my rant anymore. haha....so I've made a decision and I'll try my ass off to stick to it. I will not complain and just try my best in whatever I do, to give glory to the Lord.

Yes Kenny is right. My life have been so damn smooth sailing all along. So good that there's really nothing I should complain about. Ya even tho my work's really tiring, it undoubtedly the sure path to a well-paid career. And if I believe that God has shut all the doors and open this one for me, I shall have faith that God will see me through.

Just read Haze blog and I realised there's no end to complaining. In this lost and fallen world, life's inevitably inperfect. Her non-stop ranting suddenly lit a spark and made me realise that you can choose to live your life however you want it.

So I am choosing to live my life positively, putting my faith in Jesus Christ and letting Him lead me to the greenest pastures. It's harder said than done I know. So may God help me.

2009 is going to be a good year.

You live, you work, you die....

Initially I wanted to write a lot of stuff. Lots of things have happened for the past few weeks. Life's not all smooth for me. But well I think since it's all over there're no point talking about it anymore. All I want to say is, thanks for being there. Although I keep whining and whining about my job, my life, my everything, you're there.
Thanks for the take-away dinner, thanks for the reassuring hugs, thanks for letting me stick with you 24/7, thanks for not kicking me away, thanks for just being there when i need you. :)

well....in case anyone is interested (ya right), I still am Com-less. But that's not the pt for blogging today. I've been praying for a miracle to get a computer (well so far nothing happens, yet. I'm sure something will happen very soon. I have faith)

Ok the point is, while I was praying in church this Sunday like this, "God I wan a Mac I wan a Mac I wan a Mac I wan a Mac.....", God replied. Like literally, not through the preaching or anything. He literally told me, "Have you seek 1st my righteousness?"

I got a shock. Really, it's like the wisdom bulb just lit off. It's also like the answer is always there but I just didn't see it. I'm been so overwhelmed by all those materials things in the world I forgot about the one thing and one thing only that I should be doing. And it's not a coincidence that Pastor talked about the very same verse God spoke to me at the very same sermon.

So to anyone who's reading this (which I can count with one hand), "Have you seek 1st God's righteousness?" It's not a law people, it's a formula. If you wanna get all those things that will be added onto you, you just gotta do it God's way. It's not that I'm being materialistic, I'm just saying God knows our needs and wants and He took care of us just that way we need it. We need His righteousness 1st before we need material comforts, for man does not live on bread alone but on every word that God says.

That's the second time God spoke to me like that. The 1st time I was praying for my ear prob to get healed. God spoke to me saying, "What's there to be healed when it's already healed?"

So yes, I'm rich, I'm happy, I'm healed in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour.

It's really disturbing to have no com to use. Really. I think investing in a $2600 Dell computer is probably one of the lousiest decisions I've made. WHY DIDN'T I BUY A MAC???? Not to say that I'm a Mac fan at all. I jus wan a com that can last me longer than 3 lousy years. Damn....

Of cos I wanted to get a high-end MacBook Pro. But I don't shit money k. With 4000K in debt (and counting), I think I should be prepared for a long time without Prison Break, Supernatrual or House....my selfish, stupid and annoying bf jus wouldn't let me BT. argh!!!!! HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ANNOYING!!! I feel like pulling his hair out sometimes.

Well back to the topic. I think I'll jus get a lousy $948 MacMini since that's the only thing I can afford. I really think I should get a Mac. According to my geeky Mac-manic bf, any Mac is better than a PC, and so it shall be.

Working life is not easy.....

Haven't been blogging for A LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGG TIME. It's not that I don't wanna blog. It's that there's really nothing much to write about. More importantly, I really dun like the possibility of strangers reading my personal thoughts and feelings.

On the other hand, I think it's good to let my closest friend know that I'm still alive and kicking. Have started work for 2 months. Things are actually much better than I expected. Work is not extremely exciting but at least they're not extremely boring either. I feel that I can build a career out of this, and I'm really greatful that God has been leading me all the way.

I'm starting to try to widen my social circle. I really am not a very friendly person. It's really hard to find close friends. Sometimes I'm so lonely that I'll jus cry for hours and no one even notice, that's really pathetic. I wish there're more Honkies around me. But there're none. And people who has LOADS of friends and money and beauty and talent are emo-ing and complaining about anything and everything. That really pissed me off sometimes. In fact all the time. I think I'm jus jealous. I got no one around. Really, no one.

On a lighter note, I'm still greatful that God is always around me. Although I can't hear Him at all. I can feel His presence at least sometimes. That's the only thing that gets me going nowadays. There's no one I can talk to. No one bothers to listen to me. Sigh.....seems like I'm complaining again.

I'm happy. Just that sometimes, something jus can't change.

New House

I'm really grateful that God has given us such a nice place for our new lives. Everything seems much better now. This is a huge leap for us, and I am very sure that God is always here looking after us. Though this is only the second day, I have faith that we're going to live together happily for the next 3 years. I dunno what to say, I'm just very grateful for everything now. I've actually been really sad that I always have to choose between my family and the love of my life. But now, I have faith that God has planned out my whole life, and all I need to do is just to enjoy it.