What's Your Seduction Style?

haha yup I've probably been in love, and it hasn't let me down. :)

Janice - 離家出走

離家出走

離家出走
作曲：雷頌德
填詞：林夕
編曲：雷頌德
監製：雷頌德

豁出去漫遊　不通知親友　那快感少有　哪管想去多久
抱得你未夠　於這裡悶透　才誓死跟你　逛盡地球

何必每件壯舉都需要理由　伴你去出走
快活而內疚　不管舉世追究
願扣上你雙手　自繁華浪處到沙丘
戀愛　能有幸這樣放肆至足夠

別再管誰咒你　曾經荒謬闖蕩異地
亦未枉相戀超出煩惱的禁忌　視世上人不理
想早晚能見你　曾經反叛　也是我運氣
天與地　年老了不再飛　無那份勇氣

怕一世未能　沙礫中擁吻　有了你先有　這最淒美質感
縱使有地震　不因我犯禁　誰話你壞人　不減吸引

明知我做錯過的總要奉還　但我愛一眼
有自由浩嘆　都深刻過不散
讓你我似走犯　在窮途入教堂進諫
上帝　求你讓我共愛侶過更多晚

代價高仍愛你　曾經荒謬闖蕩異地
亦未枉相戀超出煩惱的禁忌　視世上人不理
想早晚能見你　曾經反叛也是我運氣
天與地　渡過約束　拋開生死

這樣也許了不起　但有一日轟烈乏味
就讓彼此都別戀他人也不忘記　別個再沒法比
瘋過後能放棄　回家安樂過亦有運氣
不顧忌　才了解喜與悲　能以後銘記
人有天總怕死　才註定別離

"代價高仍愛你,曾經荒謬闖蕩異地,亦未枉相戀超出煩惱的禁忌,視世上人不理..."
I hope you'll understand. :)

Exam is over....soon

haha this exam sucks big time. Mostly cos I never really put in my effort like at all.......I jus hope I can get 3.5 and I'll be more than happy. Shit what kinda person have I become???

Anyway going home so soon. Not a wee bit excited at all. One month of no friends period. Gosh. I really am a loner. Even in Singapore I don't have much friends sia. Always busy with things that I dun really like to do. ya ya ya better for my CV. Oh hack it. How can my CV be good when my GPA is only 3????? haha. I better do something be pull myself to the 2nd upper class man. I feel so ashame. Oh well but it kinda is my fault. So I only have myself to blame. Do I regret it? Not really, I enjoy my uni life like to the fullest. Did all kinda things I ever wanna do. Enjoying my single room. I'm so gonna dive next year. Maybe even go for exchange. Gosh life's good. :)

I jus hope that I can have more friends. haha.

Baby got back

Specially dedicated to people who do not like huge asses.
"You like big butt and you cannot lie!"

Complain time

Caution: This post is for me to complain so don't read if you think u'll get irritated.

Why do I get lousy gp mates ALL the time. WTF all my group mates are lousy. Can't I have like better group mates that can help me with my grades?
Why do I always get lousy grades for projects? WTF. I'm f***ing stupid is it? Watever. I am stupid.
Why am I in group A? Is freaking unfair. You freaking cram everything in one sem and I'm supposed to score As for it? WTF.
Why can't I be in group B. Damn all the stupid idiots in group B. You're jus freaking lucky.
Why am I so unlucky like ALL the freaking time man. WTF.
I never have exam luck. I'm like exam-unlucky. I jus wish I'm exam-luck-neutral so I can get what I freaking deserve. WTF everytime is like tt. Whatever I study doesn't come out. Miss out one freaking page for the module I'm damn sure I can get A. WTF WTF WTF.
I hate projects. I hate doing stuff with lousy project mates.
I just can't breathe now. So stressful. WTF. Can't I be a smart ass and score like everyone else. I'm freaking angry. They mug all the time and tt's what they do for like 20 freaking years. Freaks!!!!!! They dunno how to enjoy life and this freaks are shaping the freako study culture that normal people like me are supposed to follow. WTF. They do nothing but mug. Oh come on do they know anything else?
I admire those that dun study and are real smart. But there're like almost none in this freako school where everyone mug every single minute. Do they know how to do anything else? Oh why am I in this freaking shcool where everyone is a freaking study machine. They dunno how to do anything else!!!!!
Like when anything out of the ordinary emerges, they'll just complain like its not in the freaking book they've memorise like a bible. Oh use ur brain, not ur a** to think. All you use is your a** to memeroise!!! You're in a freaking tertiary school for your own sake.

Oh well I'm jus as stupid as everyone else. Or stupider cos I dun mug and I use my a** to think and I complain like hell like I'm a freaking smart ass when I'm a loser and an idiot. I better kill myself.

C'est la vie. Kiss my ass.

Trick or Treat? 

so so so so nice! haha he's always creative and full of ideas. haha..... 

Halloween!!!!

Guess what did I get today? A nice fancy Halloween present!!! haha Kenny was jus scolding me for no reason in the morning (he jus like to scold ppl in the morning) and ta ta.........FERRO ROCHE at night when we went subway!! haha
And what's more...........................................It's customised!!!! haha with little faces drawn on each one.
Sometimes I really dun get him. He can be all sweet at one moment and a monster at the next. Well I guess that's what we called 一啖沙糖一啖.........haha
Anyway he still tried to act cool and said he picked that up from the street. I really dun get him. Is it really that hard to tell me you love me? haha Oh Hell Yes you Do!!!!!! Admit it!!!
haha :)

~ 和你一起的世界,每一天都是美好的。

My llfe

There're four really important persons in my life. They're almost part of my life.

Most Wanted No. 1

Wilkson

He's an idiot. Well, Idiotic in a nice way. He's really the most idiotic person I've seen, but in the nicest way. He's smart too, but in a idiotic way. Anyway we don't talk much but I do love him a lot. He's always there when I need someone, and he'll always be there I'm sure. :) I hope I can be there when you need me too. Seems like he doesn't need me as much as I need you though. That really saddens me. Anyway I love Wilkson.

Most Wanted No. 2

Jacky

He's a genius, he's an idiot too, somehow. But he loves me, I know. haha....He gave me hugs and gentle loving care when I needed it. And he was always there, he isn't anymore. I miss him. But he's too busy to miss me. I always miss him. I miss all the hugs and concerns he gave me when I was sad. I love him too. But he's an idiot.

Most Wanted No. 3

Jonan

He's a doctor, and an idiot too. All my friends are idiots. We can almost only be acquaintance, but we're best friends. He's sensible, he's smart, he's high up there. I hope I have the time to know him more, but I don't. I doubt I will have the chance anymore. But I love him. I do. We are connected somehow.

Most Wanted No. 4

Kenny aka Khengz

He's everything. He's an idiot. The biggest ass on earth. He's smart, he's funny, he's nice, he's romantic, he's insensitive, he's mean, he has bad tempered, he's knowledgable, he's a genius, he's sissy, he's a MCP, he's crazy, he's my everything.
And I love him. I wish I don't love him. But I do. I wish life can be easier for us. But it's not. I wish I can plan. But I can't. I wish I know what's gonna happen. But I don't. I wish I know what he's thinking. But I don't.
But I love him. That's all I know.

My life is good. All because of all of you. :)

4th Year Anniversary

4 years. That's REALLY an achievement.
Yesterday we had our 4th year anniversary celebration. Didn't plan anything cos it is the 4th year (which actually was quite sad). But it was enjoyable nevertheless. :)
Went to Vivocity. Felt like a HK mall except that it is way too small man. Only have 2 stories and nothing much to shop. Anyway ate at pacific company cafe which was damn overpriced (why did I start complaining?). I felt rather disoriented cos it really looks like HK. haha
Then we decided to go Suntec cos there wasn't anything in the mall. Went Koshinbo for buffet. This two hungry idiots were the 1st in the queue. haha....we ate soooooooooooo much that we had to carry our stomach out after that. haha. anyway we played 15-20 in order to cleared the food. Kenny was a big time loser man. haha. Nevertheless, we laughed so much. I hope he enjoyed the dinner as much as I do. :)
It's really time to stop complaining how bad my bf is. He's really sweet and nice deep inside. haha...and to be able to tolerate me for 4 years. That's really an achievement.
I love kenny.

highlight of the day. CHOCOLATE SALTY BALLS!! (or wat's left) P.S. this man who was behind us took 4 freaking CSBs...hahaha God bless... 

haha kenny was the 1st one to get this baby lobster. haha he's so cheapo....can't stand it. haha but he really knows how to make me laugh :) 

you dun wanna know how many did we eat...... 

the shrimp was shiok!! (why do I have wrinkles???? gosh!!!) 

too idiots trying to look cool.... 

a horny bitch.... 

oh I have one too. trying to smile like an idiot.....haha 

this actually looks rather scary....haha kenny looked like some scary psycho serial killer.. 

haha took this in toyrus....kenny's damn funny!!! 

the fat bitch drinking hungryly.....that was my lunch ok! (ok plus a photo salads...:p) 

It's time to look at the bright side of life. :)

I said I as depressed yesterday nite. Guess what I got today? I movie with Kenny. Dozens of chocos, and I nice notes on my door. I'm so touched. :)
I rebonded my hair today, cos tomorrow is our 4th year anniversary celebration and I wanna do something nice for Kenny. So I rebonded my hair. N well I guess it wasn't a wrong choice. The moment he saw me he said that I look pretty (haha actaully he didn't, he implied, but tt's enough). And he kiss me on my head. Tt's so sweet of him.
Kenny is concern. Just that he's a stubborn ass and he refuse to tell me he loves me. But I know he does. At least he loves me enough to buy choco for me when I'm said. Lots of choco. :) And tt's enough.
YY is a nice neighbour. I shall be nicer to her too. :)

Updates

I haven't posted anything for like....ever. haha anyway I truckload of things happened for the past few weeks. I'm jus gonna record whatever I can remember.
Went to the leadership training camp during the break, that was really better than I thought. Exco is very nice, really. They are all nice people.
Learnt to live above the line, equipped with a pink bubble, learnt to do the write thing. haha a lot of positive thinking and shareing and all those crap. It was really enriching. Really.
The most important thing is.....I bought a PSP!!! can u beat that!!!! PSP rocks ok. I watched like one million show on my PSP. The games are fantastic. Everything rocks!!!! It's slick, it's all-in-one, it's pretty, it's expensive, it's worth the money, it's half-sponsored by Khengz, it's being used everything, it's just simply good. THE BEST.

Woke up at the RIGHT side of the bed today. The moment I open my eyes I feel so good. Simply good. I feel loved. I feel positive. I feel smart. I feel lazy. I feel sleepy. Did project until 730am and can't imagine I slept FOR THE WHOLE BLOODY DAY. It's soooooooooooooooooo good to sleep. Haven't been able to slack like this for so long. It's refreshing. My flat battery is finally charged. I feel all geared up again! :) Today is a good day.

Today is also the 6th year I've been to this amazing land. Somewhere I don't belong. I'll never belong. Well don't wanna comment on the goods and the bads. It's never ending. Just wanna say I'm greatful for what I have now. For everything that I was given. For being able to be with Khengz everyday. I realise that I have to be with him. I just have to. It's spiritual. It's therapeutic. He's kinda like a support that I can always lean on. Well almost always. All I need is a simple hug and I feel that I can conquered the whole world. All I need is for him to be there with me. Gosh I love Khengz. I do. I complain and I got sad and I doubt but I definitely love him. I do. And I know he loves me too, in a different way. And I have to accept that we're different.

Today is a good day. :) I hope tomorrow will be as well. And the day after tomorrow, and the day after the day after tomorrow, and the day after the day after the day after tomorrow, and the day after the dat after the day after............

Sadness is infectious

I think I woke up at the wrong side of the bed today. The moment I opened my eyes I feel like crying. Everything feels sad and gloomy. I think sadness is infectious, maybe I read too much of other people's blog. Everyone writes about sad and gloomy stuffs. Does anyone feel happy and satisfied with their life?
I feel like a bird being bound, yet yearning to outstretch my winds and fly. I wanna smell the freedom in the air. I have so much things hidden in me that it's slowly eating me from within. It's like you've been stuffing too many things inside a bag and it's starting to burst and everything inside are spilling out. Everything single thing. Or it's like some kids that have been locked inside a tiny little room for so so long, they knocked and knocked on the door and it cracked eventually and everything single one is storming out of the room now.
I'm envious all the time. Even when people are sad and gloomy I'm envious of them. At least they have the conscience to be sad and gloomy, to stop for a moment and be connected with their mind and soul. That is why they're sad and gloomy. They are conscious of their existence and they're pulling themselves from all the routines of life, and indulge in their sadness. How envious.

Love

1 Corinthians 13 (4-7)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Memorable Day

Today is a memorable day. :) cos kenny jus told me that he loves me. haha
Love you too kenny!!

Realization

It's 6:00am in the morning. Have to do project discussion at 1030am. Haven't done anything cause I was talking to Rui Fang and friends just now. When did hall stuff become so political? I really dunno. Anyway I don't really care.

Suddenly I have a strong feeling to tell Kenny that I love him a lot a lot. Even though I always complain about everything under the sky, even though I feel exploited sometimes, I still love him with my heart and soul. Actually deep inside I always love him. It's just that we got carried away by our everyday lives that I've forgotten how much we have to gone through to come this far. And yup I should love him the way he is, and try to accept what I can't change.

Anyway I just wanna remember this moment of realization that I really really love him. And my Kenny boy is still the same old Kenny boy I love 4 years ago. Really.

命硬 Brokeback Crossover?

haha I just realise that the lyrics of 命硬 is rather brokeback. Anyway I love both the song and the movie. :)

Brokeback Mountain

犯賤

成日都好想用中文打日記。 但係真係勁耐冇打同用中文啦。 又打得慢又好多字都唔記得。我諗打多幾次會好好多掛。
呢幾日真係發曬癲。Union D 野勁political. 我都唔知自己點解會輸。勁比人蝦。in the 1st place 我都唔係好知點解我要insist. 嘿唔到咪算囉。點解我仲要禁執著呢。 haha。。。。
打中文真係會發癲。今日就打住禁多先。 下次再打過。

命硬

二百年后再一起 应该不怕旁人不服气
团圆或者晚了廿个十年 仍然未舍弃
换个时代再一起 等荆棘满途全枯死
这繁忙很悠长 亦决心等到你 等得起...

花灑

為了要博世界讚美 便苦惱
害怕永遠也做不到
忘掉了偶爾懶理世界或會更好...

花灑

為了要博世界讚美 便苦惱
害怕永遠也做不到
忘掉了偶爾懶理世界或會更好
期望要有這個與那個 像匹布
被剪碎飛舞 盲目了兩眼也但求 要拾到
* 何必要做奴隸 無需要為失去了的執迷
輪流涼或暖像四季 做人做過世
漫長年月有路軌 人總想擁有東西
要是代價高 越令心中牽繫
擔憂要是無謂 拿花灑洗禮 *
la……….
為了要與某某愛上 便希冀
為了挫折過 便緊記
全為貢獻過 要有報答 便有對比
全為看中過 發覺看錯 便生氣
甚麼叫天理 忘掉奮鬥過要隨緣 信命理
Repeat *
la…… 沙發自在自在齊齊坐
拿去它都總可去站去跑
無謂靠甚麼 何不將一切拋低
志願大過天 亦像世上螻蟻
星星永未流逝 如只可感嘆它美麗
得到也是無謂 負擔高過天際

Help!!~~~ sending distress signal..--G--I--V--E------M--E------M--O--R--E------M--O--N--E--Y-- 

So am I the victim of their conspiracy???  

Life Sucks Ep 1 - Retail Therapy

I'm the queen of complains. I admit that. Given so many brain cells and even more talents, I should be glad and happy and satisfied and everything but sad. But instead, I am sad most of the time. Kenny is nice. He is. Although he's not the nicest in the world, but he is nice enough for me to want to spend the rest of my life with. Am I comparing too much? Or is there really something wrong with him? I think there's something wrong with him. haha....

I'm especially sad and stressed these days. After coming back from a nice trip home, with my lovely parents and sisters and a fairly interesting trip to Disneyland, I was faced with so many irritating episodes and people. I got angry, I cried, I slammed the door, I kicked the wall. Gosh. After school started everything got even worse. 8 tutorials a week, Union mess, FOC, Kenny, homesick, 2nd-lower syndrome, inferiority complex, bad-hair-everyday, fat fat fat.....Life in NTU is full of shit. Occationally Kenny would be a nice bf and make be happy, but other times he's also too stressed to bother me already. I understand, but I just can't stop complaining of all the chores that I have to do. I am willing to do it for him. Really I AM. But all I need is a "thank you very much" or "I appreciate it" or "maybe I'll treat you dinner" plus a nice little hug. I'm superficial, tell me you love me, tell me I'm your loving girlfriend, tell me its really nice of me doing chores for you, tell me you need me. I need to hear it. I stress... H~~~~E~~~~~A~~~~~R! I don't wanna jus KNOW, I wanna HEAR!!!

Anyway instead of doing my tutorial and giving tuition, I went for a little retail therapy today. Okay, little is quite an understatement. I bought a suit and some other stuffs. That makes me feel better. Made me at least. I wanna know why do I need to buy to make myself happy. I mean, can't I just be happy like by nature? Come on....SAY MY NAME. Is life so miserable that I need to resort to burning my pockets to make me feel happier now and worse later? Gosh life sucks man.

Anyway I was also bored enough to check out what's retail therapy.

Retail therapy is shopping with the primary purpose of improving the buyer's mood or disposition. (1) Often seen in people during periods of depression or transition, it is normally a short-lived habit. Items purchased during periods of retail therapy are sometimes referred to as "comfort buys."
Retail therapy was first used as a term in the 1980s with the first reference being this sentence in the Chicago Tribune of Christmas Eve 1986. "We've become a nation measuring out our lives in shopping bags and nursing our psychic ills through retail therapy." (2)
In 2001, the European Union conducted a study finding that 33 per cent of shoppers surveyed had "high level of addiction to rash or unnecessary consumption'." [1] This was causing debt problems for many with the problem being particularly bad in Scottish young people.
Researchers at Melbourne University have advocated its classification as a pschological disorder called oniomania or compulsive shopping disorder. [2]
One Musician used this term Retail Therapy in attempt to caution the marketing oriented music industry.

And here's a little new about retail therapy.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/Archive/Article/0,4273,4181822,00.html

It doesn't f***ing work!!! Get a life!!!!

She just feels better.  

Claustrophilia

Claustrophilia is the liking of small, enclosed spaces. It comes from the Latin "claustrum" ("enclosed space"), and the Greek "philos" ("beloved friend", to philein - "to love").The influential author and scientist Isaac Asimov was a well-known claustrophile.Perhaps better known is the condition's antonym, claustrophobia.

I hide in the closet for quite a while just now. Ate one whole bar of chocolate. And I'm convinced that I am Claustrophilic.

In love with K700i 

In love with K700i

It was a love at first sight, an instant chemical reaction that I was never quite able to explain clearly. Maybe it is the slickness, or the multifunction, or just nothing at all. Anyway, the moment I saw it I knew I was gonna have it some day.

The some day same quite late though. It was after I broke my Panasonic babe that I finally took up the courage to ask daddy to buy for me. The feeling of owning it was as good as I would have expected. It took great photos, with radio reception, Bluetooth transfer, internet access, picture messages....I was in madly in love with it.

Never did my baby failed me. Not even when I dropped it from 3 stroies down the stairs. The functions were great. Not only does it gives instantaneously file transfer, it's probably one of the best time-killing machines with its radio reception and mini tennis game. Indeed, it sustained me through all the lonely sleepless nights and the long bus rides.

One year has passed. No longer it is the best model around. The keypads are getting loose. The sensitivity and the reaction time are not as fast anymore. Sometimes it'll even shut down on its own and ignore me all together. But never did I realize it has already become an indispensable part of my life. It wasn't the function, wasn't the look, wasn't the brand or anything else. It was merely the time we've spent together that binds me so strongly with it. The time wasn't long, but it was memorable, almost fatal.

And now? I am waiting for something to happen. I don't know how long the wait is gonna be, but I'll wait.

陳奕迅-活著多好

to everyone out there. I love you. :)

活著多好

當我還在　花園散步
當我還在　浴室洗澡
十步以內　可擁抱

遇著什麼　煩惱
想跟我說　都可聽到
翻到有趣　圖畫
何妨大笑　讓妙事亦被我看到

遊玩時　開心一點　不必掛念我
來好好給我活著　就似最初
仍然在呼吸都應該　要慶賀
如果想哭　可試試對嘉賓滿座……
說個笑話　紀念我

到處還是　香水氣味
到處還是　塗鴉筆記
就像我未　拋低你

Sometimes I wonder why is it that I'm demanding so much? I admire the love between my sis and her bf. So pure and enjoyable. How about mine? I enjoy being with kenny. He's so lovable. :) It's just that at times, I wish I can be pampered more than I am now.
Anyway I hope one day when I'm not around, everyone around me can live like what is written in the song. :)

I paid 5 dollars for this pic. haha the orang utans are so cute!!!! isn't the mother eating marsh mellow???? 

another butterfly and stella 

took me quite a while to take this pic haha 

isn't the scene nice? I love the sun and the nature. :) 

nosy nosy body. :) so so so so so so so cute!!! haha 

this monkey was playing with its finger for one second, and his erm....the next. haha cutie!!!! 

this white tiger keeps on walking back and forth...a troubled tiger indeed.... 

feeding time!!