It's 6:00am in the morning. Have to do project discussion at 1030am. Haven't done anything cause I was talking to Rui Fang and friends just now. When did hall stuff become so political? I really dunno. Anyway I don't really care.
Suddenly I have a strong feeling to tell Kenny that I love him a lot a lot. Even though I always complain about everything under the sky, even though I feel exploited sometimes, I still love him with my heart and soul. Actually deep inside I always love him. It's just that we got carried away by our everyday lives that I've forgotten how much we have to gone through to come this far. And yup I should love him the way he is, and try to accept what I can't change.
Anyway I just wanna remember this moment of realization that I really really love him. And my Kenny boy is still the same old Kenny boy I love 4 years ago. Really.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Monday, August 28, 2006
命硬 Brokeback Crossover?
haha I just realise that the lyrics of 命硬 is rather brokeback. Anyway I love both the song and the movie. :)
Sunday, August 27, 2006
犯賤
成日都好想用中文打日記。 但係真係勁耐冇打同用中文啦。 又打得慢又好多字都唔記得。我諗打多幾次會好好多掛。
呢幾日真係發曬癲。Union D 野勁political. 我都唔知自己點解會輸。勁比人蝦。in the 1st place 我都唔係好知點解我要insist. 嘿唔到咪算囉。點解我仲要禁執著呢。 haha。。。。
打中文真係會發癲。今日就打住禁多先。 下次再打過。
呢幾日真係發曬癲。Union D 野勁political. 我都唔知自己點解會輸。勁比人蝦。in the 1st place 我都唔係好知點解我要insist. 嘿唔到咪算囉。點解我仲要禁執著呢。 haha。。。。
打中文真係會發癲。今日就打住禁多先。 下次再打過。
Thursday, August 24, 2006
花灑
為了要博世界讚美 便苦惱
害怕永遠也做不到
忘掉了偶爾懶理世界或會更好
期望要有這個與那個 像匹布
被剪碎飛舞 盲目了兩眼也但求 要拾到
* 何必要做奴隸 無需要為失去了的執迷
輪流涼或暖像四季 做人做過世
漫長年月有路軌 人總想擁有東西
要是代價高 越令心中牽繫
擔憂要是無謂 拿花灑洗禮 *
la……….
為了要與某某愛上 便希冀
為了挫折過 便緊記
全為貢獻過 要有報答 便有對比
全為看中過 發覺看錯 便生氣
甚麼叫天理 忘掉奮鬥過要隨緣 信命理
Repeat *
la…… 沙發自在自在齊齊坐
拿去它都總可去站去跑
無謂靠甚麼 何不將一切拋低
志願大過天 亦像世上螻蟻
星星永未流逝 如只可感嘆它美麗
得到也是無謂 負擔高過天際
害怕永遠也做不到
忘掉了偶爾懶理世界或會更好
期望要有這個與那個 像匹布
被剪碎飛舞 盲目了兩眼也但求 要拾到
* 何必要做奴隸 無需要為失去了的執迷
輪流涼或暖像四季 做人做過世
漫長年月有路軌 人總想擁有東西
要是代價高 越令心中牽繫
擔憂要是無謂 拿花灑洗禮 *
la……….
為了要與某某愛上 便希冀
為了挫折過 便緊記
全為貢獻過 要有報答 便有對比
全為看中過 發覺看錯 便生氣
甚麼叫天理 忘掉奮鬥過要隨緣 信命理
Repeat *
la…… 沙發自在自在齊齊坐
拿去它都總可去站去跑
無謂靠甚麼 何不將一切拋低
志願大過天 亦像世上螻蟻
星星永未流逝 如只可感嘆它美麗
得到也是無謂 負擔高過天際
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Life Sucks Ep 1 - Retail Therapy
I'm the queen of complains. I admit that. Given so many brain cells and even more talents, I should be glad and happy and satisfied and everything but sad. But instead, I am sad most of the time. Kenny is nice. He is. Although he's not the nicest in the world, but he is nice enough for me to want to spend the rest of my life with. Am I comparing too much? Or is there really something wrong with him? I think there's something wrong with him. haha....
I'm especially sad and stressed these days. After coming back from a nice trip home, with my lovely parents and sisters and a fairly interesting trip to Disneyland, I was faced with so many irritating episodes and people. I got angry, I cried, I slammed the door, I kicked the wall. Gosh. After school started everything got even worse. 8 tutorials a week, Union mess, FOC, Kenny, homesick, 2nd-lower syndrome, inferiority complex, bad-hair-everyday, fat fat fat.....Life in NTU is full of shit. Occationally Kenny would be a nice bf and make be happy, but other times he's also too stressed to bother me already. I understand, but I just can't stop complaining of all the chores that I have to do. I am willing to do it for him. Really I AM. But all I need is a "thank you very much" or "I appreciate it" or "maybe I'll treat you dinner" plus a nice little hug. I'm superficial, tell me you love me, tell me I'm your loving girlfriend, tell me its really nice of me doing chores for you, tell me you need me. I need to hear it. I stress... H~~~~E~~~~~A~~~~~R! I don't wanna jus KNOW, I wanna HEAR!!!
Anyway instead of doing my tutorial and giving tuition, I went for a little retail therapy today. Okay, little is quite an understatement. I bought a suit and some other stuffs. That makes me feel better. Made me at least. I wanna know why do I need to buy to make myself happy. I mean, can't I just be happy like by nature? Come on....SAY MY NAME. Is life so miserable that I need to resort to burning my pockets to make me feel happier now and worse later? Gosh life sucks man.
Anyway I was also bored enough to check out what's retail therapy.
Retail therapy is shopping with the primary purpose of improving the buyer's mood or disposition. (1) Often seen in people during periods of depression or transition, it is normally a short-lived habit. Items purchased during periods of retail therapy are sometimes referred to as "comfort buys."
Retail therapy was first used as a term in the 1980s with the first reference being this sentence in the Chicago Tribune of Christmas Eve 1986. "We've become a nation measuring out our lives in shopping bags and nursing our psychic ills through retail therapy." (2)
In 2001, the European Union conducted a study finding that 33 per cent of shoppers surveyed had "high level of addiction to rash or unnecessary consumption'." [1] This was causing debt problems for many with the problem being particularly bad in Scottish young people.
Researchers at Melbourne University have advocated its classification as a pschological disorder called oniomania or compulsive shopping disorder. [2]
One Musician used this term Retail Therapy in attempt to caution the marketing oriented music industry.
And here's a little new about retail therapy.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/Archive/Article/0,4273,4181822,00.html
It doesn't f***ing work!!! Get a life!!!!
I'm especially sad and stressed these days. After coming back from a nice trip home, with my lovely parents and sisters and a fairly interesting trip to Disneyland, I was faced with so many irritating episodes and people. I got angry, I cried, I slammed the door, I kicked the wall. Gosh. After school started everything got even worse. 8 tutorials a week, Union mess, FOC, Kenny, homesick, 2nd-lower syndrome, inferiority complex, bad-hair-everyday, fat fat fat.....Life in NTU is full of shit. Occationally Kenny would be a nice bf and make be happy, but other times he's also too stressed to bother me already. I understand, but I just can't stop complaining of all the chores that I have to do. I am willing to do it for him. Really I AM. But all I need is a "thank you very much" or "I appreciate it" or "maybe I'll treat you dinner" plus a nice little hug. I'm superficial, tell me you love me, tell me I'm your loving girlfriend, tell me its really nice of me doing chores for you, tell me you need me. I need to hear it. I stress... H~~~~E~~~~~A~~~~~R! I don't wanna jus KNOW, I wanna HEAR!!!
Anyway instead of doing my tutorial and giving tuition, I went for a little retail therapy today. Okay, little is quite an understatement. I bought a suit and some other stuffs. That makes me feel better. Made me at least. I wanna know why do I need to buy to make myself happy. I mean, can't I just be happy like by nature? Come on....SAY MY NAME. Is life so miserable that I need to resort to burning my pockets to make me feel happier now and worse later? Gosh life sucks man.
Anyway I was also bored enough to check out what's retail therapy.
Retail therapy is shopping with the primary purpose of improving the buyer's mood or disposition. (1) Often seen in people during periods of depression or transition, it is normally a short-lived habit. Items purchased during periods of retail therapy are sometimes referred to as "comfort buys."
Retail therapy was first used as a term in the 1980s with the first reference being this sentence in the Chicago Tribune of Christmas Eve 1986. "We've become a nation measuring out our lives in shopping bags and nursing our psychic ills through retail therapy." (2)
In 2001, the European Union conducted a study finding that 33 per cent of shoppers surveyed had "high level of addiction to rash or unnecessary consumption'." [1] This was causing debt problems for many with the problem being particularly bad in Scottish young people.
Researchers at Melbourne University have advocated its classification as a pschological disorder called oniomania or compulsive shopping disorder. [2]
One Musician used this term Retail Therapy in attempt to caution the marketing oriented music industry.
And here's a little new about retail therapy.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/Archive/Article/0,4273,4181822,00.html
It doesn't f***ing work!!! Get a life!!!!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Claustrophilia
Claustrophilia is the liking of small, enclosed spaces. It comes from the Latin "claustrum" ("enclosed space"), and the Greek "philos" ("beloved friend", to philein - "to love").The influential author and scientist Isaac Asimov was a well-known claustrophile.Perhaps better known is the condition's antonym, claustrophobia.
I hide in the closet for quite a while just now. Ate one whole bar of chocolate. And I'm convinced that I am Claustrophilic.
I hide in the closet for quite a while just now. Ate one whole bar of chocolate. And I'm convinced that I am Claustrophilic.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
In love with K700i
It was a love at first sight, an instant chemical reaction that I was never quite able to explain clearly. Maybe it is the slickness, or the multifunction, or just nothing at all. Anyway, the moment I saw it I knew I was gonna have it some day.
The some day same quite late though. It was after I broke my Panasonic babe that I finally took up the courage to ask daddy to buy for me. The feeling of owning it was as good as I would have expected. It took great photos, with radio reception, Bluetooth transfer, internet access, picture messages....I was in madly in love with it.
Never did my baby failed me. Not even when I dropped it from 3 stroies down the stairs. The functions were great. Not only does it gives instantaneously file transfer, it's probably one of the best time-killing machines with its radio reception and mini tennis game. Indeed, it sustained me through all the lonely sleepless nights and the long bus rides.
One year has passed. No longer it is the best model around. The keypads are getting loose. The sensitivity and the reaction time are not as fast anymore. Sometimes it'll even shut down on its own and ignore me all together. But never did I realize it has already become an indispensable part of my life. It wasn't the function, wasn't the look, wasn't the brand or anything else. It was merely the time we've spent together that binds me so strongly with it. The time wasn't long, but it was memorable, almost fatal.
And now? I am waiting for something to happen. I don't know how long the wait is gonna be, but I'll wait.
The some day same quite late though. It was after I broke my Panasonic babe that I finally took up the courage to ask daddy to buy for me. The feeling of owning it was as good as I would have expected. It took great photos, with radio reception, Bluetooth transfer, internet access, picture messages....I was in madly in love with it.
Never did my baby failed me. Not even when I dropped it from 3 stroies down the stairs. The functions were great. Not only does it gives instantaneously file transfer, it's probably one of the best time-killing machines with its radio reception and mini tennis game. Indeed, it sustained me through all the lonely sleepless nights and the long bus rides.
One year has passed. No longer it is the best model around. The keypads are getting loose. The sensitivity and the reaction time are not as fast anymore. Sometimes it'll even shut down on its own and ignore me all together. But never did I realize it has already become an indispensable part of my life. It wasn't the function, wasn't the look, wasn't the brand or anything else. It was merely the time we've spent together that binds me so strongly with it. The time wasn't long, but it was memorable, almost fatal.
And now? I am waiting for something to happen. I don't know how long the wait is gonna be, but I'll wait.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
活著多好
當我還在 花園散步
當我還在 浴室洗澡
十步以內 可擁抱
遇著什麼 煩惱
想跟我說 都可聽到
翻到有趣 圖畫
何妨大笑 讓妙事亦被我看到
遊玩時 開心一點 不必掛念我
來好好給我活著 就似最初
仍然在呼吸都應該 要慶賀
如果想哭 可試試對嘉賓滿座……
說個笑話 紀念我
到處還是 香水氣味
到處還是 塗鴉筆記
就像我未 拋低你
Sometimes I wonder why is it that I'm demanding so much? I admire the love between my sis and her bf. So pure and enjoyable. How about mine? I enjoy being with kenny. He's so lovable. :) It's just that at times, I wish I can be pampered more than I am now.
Anyway I hope one day when I'm not around, everyone around me can live like what is written in the song. :)
當我還在 浴室洗澡
十步以內 可擁抱
遇著什麼 煩惱
想跟我說 都可聽到
翻到有趣 圖畫
何妨大笑 讓妙事亦被我看到
遊玩時 開心一點 不必掛念我
來好好給我活著 就似最初
仍然在呼吸都應該 要慶賀
如果想哭 可試試對嘉賓滿座……
說個笑話 紀念我
到處還是 香水氣味
到處還是 塗鴉筆記
就像我未 拋低你
Sometimes I wonder why is it that I'm demanding so much? I admire the love between my sis and her bf. So pure and enjoyable. How about mine? I enjoy being with kenny. He's so lovable. :) It's just that at times, I wish I can be pampered more than I am now.
Anyway I hope one day when I'm not around, everyone around me can live like what is written in the song. :)
A day in the Zoo
haha went zoo last wednesday. took loads of nice pictures. :) didn't know it would be that interesting, to be in touch with the nature and all. it's always nice to stop once in a while to admire the nature, do some self-reflection. :)
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
MacBear's Matrix move
8th Aug 06
yesterday went for joint hall bash...umm not very fun actually but haha at least I tried to have some fun la.
Really miss the FOC comm. Think everyone is very nice, well almost everyone. haha. like to be with them. aiyo now I feel like running again leh. Really like the ppl there. umm but I think dun wan la. Really must study already...hehe
haha bought the national day mac jus now when eating breakfast at can b. haha had so much fun playing with it and irritating kenny. ken's good and playing with dolls also. haha he taught me the matrix move!
Tin Lok Lane
haha new semester!!! decided to start my own blog, finally. always think that I'm not those knida person who'll do a blog. still am not actually. hope this will last.
1st day of school. not a bad day. jus tt I knocked on the fire extinguisher outside my door twice. haha I'll take it as a good sign. :)
hope I can have a nice semester this time!
Objective:
1. DO NOT JOIN ANY HALL ACTIVITIES!! YOU'VE HAD ENOUGH!!! STUPID GIRL!!!
2. STUDY STUDY SUTDY!!! YOU'VE BEEN A PIG OK!
3. Loose weight. I'm so gonna carry out my fat club plan man!
4. Don't quarrel with Kenny. He's been really nice ok! Jus try to give and take la ok! be more patient with him. :)
5. maintain my blog!
6. take 1star 2star 3star kayaking + rock-climbing + diving
7. Don't sleep too much! 7 hour a day at most!
8. go trips!!!! love trips.
9. Don't be a cry baby.
10. smile smile smile :)
haha I think tt's it. jus wanna ramble in my blog since no one's gonna look at it. haha
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