New year doesn't seem new anymore.
I always wanna write more entries but my thoughts always jump around. I just can't write something meaningful.
Life's......................I dunno how to explain.
I hate Singapore. Is it? I dunno.
I love Kenny. That I'm sure.
I wanna bring happiness to everyone. I dun wanna be sad all the time.
I feel like.........there's so many things I feel like. Dunno how to starts.
I actually hide so many things within me. Is driving me crazy.
Do I wanna write it out and let everyone know?
I'm so freaking......I dunno.
I wish I'm prettier.
I cherish my time with Kenny. I feel that life's so uncertain for me to hope for anything.
My results suck.
I'm complaining again. Oh please I wish no one reads this. I dun wanna let people know how I feel, I jus discovered that.
Then what am I doing?
My life's so.........burdening. I can't really choose things that I like. Or I dun even dare to like what I like. I dunno. There's nothing I love immensely. Of cos except Kenny. But what good does it make? I dunno. It's never a life long plan in the 1st place when I sent that SMS. I never expect anything in return. Really. It was not for me to control.
Then what can I do now? I just wish I have the same passion for other things in life too.
I'm a lucky girl. I thank God for that. It's better than striking a lottery. I thank God for that.
There's nothing I wanna buy. Actually I wanna get some eye gel for my dark circle.
This is how I think. How am I going to write something constructive at all? My thoughts are like....popcorns.
I am fat. I need to lose weights.
:) and :(
1 comment:
Hey emo gal.. Come on, cheer up a little =)
I understand what you mean, cause my mind is surely "popcorn-er" than yours! It's like there are bits and pieces of thoughts lying all over the place, and some how they just can't be put together to from a complete picture. It always feels like we're in such a dilemma, principles and values keep contradicting each other.
I guess it's the insercurity and uncertainty of life that makes us so freckled.
I had a talk with an army friend today. Though he's just a few days older then me, his thinking seems to be very clear and matured and pretty much "in one piece". I don't understand why, but I'm gonna find out.
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