My have a really special sister

My sister's life is full of joy. I always envy her carefree life and all the friends around her. It is such a joy to read her xanga and know that she's enjoying her life to the fullest. She may not be the smartest person I've seen, but she definitely is the most special person. Her happiness is so influential that even by merely reading her xanga you'll feel happy. Below is one good example, supposedly she's complaining about her boring life, but it is still "happening" to me.

枯燥生活既小小快樂金句

今日..........
lily話佢自己琴日做功課做到3點幾...
係因為佢睇左套"衰鬼老婆"
我同louisa加諗加諗...都諗唔明果個係咩節目...
原來果個係"迎妻接福"...哦!明晒

仲有今日o係lunch玩埋d iq題都真係幾攪笑...
好似話女麻女麻估一個菜名...
ans:椰菜(阿爺條菜)救命-________-"
仲有....有咩野食係...睇落去同食落去係唔同既lei!?
ans:旺仔小曼頭-_____-
因為果個廣告果隻歌係:看起來一樣呀食落就是不一樣!"""
哈哈哈
其實仲有好多-_-但lei 2個我真係笑左好耐好耐...哈哈哈
p.s一睇就知我既生活...errrrrrrr"""真係好好好枯燥=/=救命
同埋好唔開心既就係..我今日補frenda......唔小心...訓左.../oo\"
同埋最唔開心既就係......我今日去左買諗住好好味既零食...
點知原來唔好味......."但我最後食晒._.!"

I really pray that she can keep it that way. That no one can tint her innocence and her carefree life. :)

My life is lovely

I'm always very thankful when Kenny is around. Life's so lovely with him around. Although I always complain but I love sticking with him 24/7, and I'm thankful he never kick me away. :) He let me stick with him for as long as I like. hehe....tt's really sweet. It's not 1 or 2 years, but 4 years. I think he's really patient with me. Or maybe he loves me a lot. haha....maybe he wants to stick 24/7 with me too. Oh well, who doesn't. wahahaha......

If I die today.....

I'm alone is this miserable room for chinese new year. I hate CYN. Gosh should have just gone back.
I spend my 22nd bday alone. Eating Mac and blowing my own candle. That's really pathetic. I have so little friends. Sometimes I wonder whether it is my choice to be in this way. I guess it goes back all the way to when I was still in St. Rose. No one likes me. Back then, I was REALLY a loner. That's why it's really hard to let many ppl to be in my life now. I can only handle I few.
I'm so glad to have wilkson around. My whole life depends on my best friends. It's like I'm clinging onto them to prevent myself from drowning. Oh yes I'm drowning. So pathetic that I have to go Toni n Guy to cut my hair and meet this Swedish hair stylist and actually regret not to ask him to have dinner with me. That IS pathetic. Well it is still better than spending ur bday eating mac and blowing candle alone on the cake that you buy for urself.
I always wonder if I die right here right now. Who would notice? No one. Maybe they'll know when my corpse rot and maggots starts eating my eyeballs. Will anyone shed I tear? Some might, but it'll be over soon. I'll be forgotten. And life goes on.
That's me. Stella. I spend my whole life doing things that are meaningless. I work hard on things that does not yield. I don't know what my future lies. Really. I'm pathetic.
If I die today, life goes on. I'm not anyone's best friend. I'm just a girl who ate mac and blew candle alone on her 22nd bday.

Happy Valentine's Day

Though you're not around. I still am thankful that you're with me. Am thankful for the 4 good years you've given me. Maybe this 4 good years are all we have, I'm still thankful. I want you to pursue your dreams. To be whoever you wanna be. I'm so glad to see you achieving so much now. I'm so glad I've been helpful for these 4 good years. Sometimes I see myself as your guardian angel who is just meant to be there when you needed me the most. And now, you've spread your wings, you can be someone else's guardian angel. I'm still thankful. Thankful that you're at God's embrace now, thankful for everything that happened to us in theses 4 good years, even though 4 good years are all we have.

I love you Kenny.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
Ill be forever thankful baby
Youre the one who held me up
Never let me fall
Youre the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
Im grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I dont know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for meT
he tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
Youve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me

Im everything I am
Because you loved me