Haven't been blogging for A LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGG TIME. It's not that I don't wanna blog. It's that there's really nothing much to write about. More importantly, I really dun like the possibility of strangers reading my personal thoughts and feelings.

On the other hand, I think it's good to let my closest friend know that I'm still alive and kicking. Have started work for 2 months. Things are actually much better than I expected. Work is not extremely exciting but at least they're not extremely boring either. I feel that I can build a career out of this, and I'm really greatful that God has been leading me all the way.

I'm starting to try to widen my social circle. I really am not a very friendly person. It's really hard to find close friends. Sometimes I'm so lonely that I'll jus cry for hours and no one even notice, that's really pathetic. I wish there're more Honkies around me. But there're none. And people who has LOADS of friends and money and beauty and talent are emo-ing and complaining about anything and everything. That really pissed me off sometimes. In fact all the time. I think I'm jus jealous. I got no one around. Really, no one.

On a lighter note, I'm still greatful that God is always around me. Although I can't hear Him at all. I can feel His presence at least sometimes. That's the only thing that gets me going nowadays. There's no one I can talk to. No one bothers to listen to me. Sigh.....seems like I'm complaining again.

I'm happy. Just that sometimes, something jus can't change.