信心﹐係咪應該係你比我o既呢﹖

You're always there

I can't be more sure than I am now. You're always there. Always. Every minute of everyday. You lifted me up when I fell. You love me when no one does. You're always there for me. Always loving me.

And You gave me the best I can ever get. The one I prayed for.

I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned Struck down but not destroyed I'm blessed beyond the curse for His promise will endure And His joy's gonna be my strength Though the sorrow may last for the night His joy comes with the morning...

So,

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it allI hope it's not too small

Never have I felt so right before. Love you.

The Divine Answer

When I look into Your holiness
When I gaze into Your loveliness
When all things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You

When I've found the joy of reaching Your heart
When my will becomes enthralled in Your love
When all things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You

I worship You, I worship You
The reason I live is to worship You
I worship You, I worship You
The reason I live, is to worship You

Nice Song

當生活變成一種習慣﹐當生活失去意義。You may say I'm dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

Life is fucking miserable. I wanna kill myself but I just can't. I just wanna slash my wrist and end all these misery. I bet no one would even notice. Or maybe they will when I corpse starts to stink. I hate this fucking place. I hate myself. There's no friends and no family. You eat alone, sleep alone, wake up alone, go to school alone, spend your bday alone, spend new year alone. I'll just kill myself and die alone also. I should just jump down the building and no one would even care. Fuck it.

I wanna be the one who makes you smile, like the way I do when I think of all the silly things that we've done together. I wanna be the one you'll miss when you're lonely. I wanna be the one you'd dream of at night. I wanna be the one who'll kiss you good night every night. I wanna be the one you'll turn to when you have trouble. I wanna be the one who'll always be there to support you. I wanna be the one that you'll be waiting for at the end of the aisle. I wanna be the one that bears your children who'll call Shaun and Chidy. I wanna be the one that'll celebrate your 60th anniversary with you. I wanna be the one that'll hold your hand and walk with you till the end when we meet Jesus.

I'm sorry for all the fights, sweats and tears. I'm sorry that I'll never be your ideal gf. I'm sorry that I'm always forgetful. I'm sorry for calling you whenever I am lonely. I'm sorry for giving you too much pressure. I'm sorry for being so dependent. I'm sorry for raising my voice when I'm angry. I'm sorry for not letting you spend time with your friends. I'm sorry for not being understanding. I'm sorry for not losing weights. I'm sorry for being so lazy. I'm sorry for being jealous all the time....

But I'll never be sorry for knowing you and being in love with you. Thank you, for everything.

Smiles :)

好想結婚...

There was this ang moh volunteering to take picture for us. So here goes....

Ordered Sirloin and ribeye, umm the steak would be better...

Me!

A nice weekend with Kenny

After Kenny moved out of NTU I have been feeling really sad and lonely. Been seeing him everyday for two years and now it's really hard to get used to not having anyone with me. :(

Anyway there's nothing much I can do except to get used to it.

Have to admit that Kenny is still making efforts to see me whenever he could. More so than I can ask for actually.

Went CHIMES for dinner on Sat. The place was quite nice but the bill came up to 100 bucks. Gosh feel so bad. But Kenny said something really sweet that day. :)

Said "Nevermind if your ass is big, I'll still like it" haha. and "I'll bring you to eat nice stuff once a month ok". That's really sweet. I almost melted. hehe.....

I am such a loser. haha....I complain and complain and complain and complian when Kenny is working his ass off and still making some time to see me. :P

And I do have ambition ok. I wanna earn at least 10K in the next 5 to 7 years, so that I can give my family a better living. It is just that it is not something I will feel extremely happy for so I never tell anyone. It is more of a responsibility that I am more than willing to take up.

But if without such responsibility, I really just wanna get married and study medicine all over again. Getting married is something that I've been dreaming since like....17? haha.....every single detail. :P

Will post the photos later.

P.S. Will definitely run more this sem!!!

In the end, there will be nobody.

You will meet people along the way, but you are all alone, walking.

You don't know where will you end up at.

You just have to keep walking. Keep walking. Keep walking. Keep walking. Keep walking....

Or you can stop. Somehow...

A little gift from heaven

When you wake up in the morning, and breakfast is served right before you. That's a little gift from heaven. Thank you. :) That was really sweet.